I Can Still See Your Lies

I still compare myself to her even though you are gone.
I still wake up in the morning feeling like I’m worthless.
I still have those dreams about you and me, in hopes that one day they will come true.
I still have the hoodie you let me wear on that rainy day and I sleep with it everynight.
When I think about you, I always look at her pictures and compare myself for the worst.
ME: ugly, not worth it, cries a lot, is utterly and completely in love with you.
HER: beautiful, skinny, in love with herself, left you for someone more attractive.
WHY?! I don’t know. I can’t figure it out.
All I know is that I’m in love with you for you.
I will be by your side until the end.
I will be there to lift you up when you are down, when your head is spinning around.
I will be the girl of your dreams, even if I’m not the girl of mine.

What I Still Believe

I still compare myself to her even though you are gone.
I still wake up in the morning feeling like I’m worthless.
I still have those dreams about you and me, in hopes that one day they will come true.
I still have the hoodie you let me wear on that rainy day and I sleep with it everynight.
When I think about you, I always look at her pictures and compare myself for the worst.
ME: ugly, not worth it, cries a lot, is utterly and completely in love with you.
HER: beautiful, skinny, in love with herself, left you for someone more attractive.
WHY?! I don’t know. I can’t figure it out.
All I know is that I’m in love with you for you.
I will be by your side until the end.
I will be there to lift you up when you are down, when your head is spinning around.
I will be the girl of your dreams, even if I’m not the girl of mine.

I love you

I miss you.
There I said it.
I can’t get you out of my head
And it kills me when I see you with another girl.
I wish that I can go back in time.
To I time where I was beautiful and I could stay like that.
To I time where life was simple and my parents cared.
I’ve been in love with you for some time and
I still have yet to kiss you.
But I really want too.
Please listen to me because this is important…
This might be the last time I see you or talk to you
If it is I want you to know that I’m in love with you.
I always have been and I always will be
I die inside when I see you hurt.
I just want to hug you and never let you go.
The way you touch me make s me feel loved
Like I can be anyone I want to be because you believe in me.
I wish you were by my side forever and always.
I wish you could walk in my shoes so you can feel what I feel
And be a witness to what I have to put up with.
I wish you would come running to my arms and you’re the one saying
“I love you, please never let me go”

You are so beautiful to me.

Looking up at the moon-lit sky with my bright blue eyes glowing.
The smell of wet grass and leaves in the air.
My layered hair blew in the wind.
The heart raced and beated wondering if he would come for me.
I then collapsed.
He followed and held me in his arms until I woke up.
We started to walk again and I wanted to get away.
I turned away, but he stopped me in my place
He turned me so we were face to face then he whispered
I love you.

Nothing you say can change how I feel about you.

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
And I don't want to run away.
Some call me crazy but I don't care
I will never stop loving you.
If only you saw yourself in the mirror.
If only you saw the amazing person I see.
You might need time to think it over,
But I'm not fine with moving forward.
It's hard for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart.
It's been a long time coming but it's time.
Just so you know, I try to let you go
But I can't just stop.
You could say you hate me, you never loved me, you never want to be with me.
You can say you cheat, you lie, you steal.
I don't care.
Because nothing you say can change how I feel about you.