What I Still Believe

I still compare myself to her even though you are gone.
I still wake up in the morning feeling like I’m worthless.
I still have those dreams about you and me, in hopes that one day they will come true.
I still have the hoodie you let me wear on that rainy day and I sleep with it everynight.
When I think about you, I always look at her pictures and compare myself for the worst.
ME: ugly, not worth it, cries a lot, is utterly and completely in love with you.
HER: beautiful, skinny, in love with herself, left you for someone more attractive.
WHY?! I don’t know. I can’t figure it out.
All I know is that I’m in love with you for you.
I will be by your side until the end.
I will be there to lift you up when you are down, when your head is spinning around.
I will be the girl of your dreams, even if I’m not the girl of mine.